look at the stars, look how they shine for you.

Jen. MN.

"I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing."

-Agatha Christie-

Being a part of making maple syrup from tapping the tree to bottling is truly one of my favorite things. We’re some of the only people I know around here that still use wood to boil it, too.

Makes me feel all homestead like 👵🏼😏

I wish we could share with everyone cause I’m always telling people how amazing it is. But my BIL sells 90% of it in 55gal drums to distributors. And it’s his operation so like…can’t push it lol

anxietyproblem:

One of those little things I miss so much about my mom is her food. She would always make me my own little bowl of tuna and potato salads without onions. Haven’t eaten either of those since cause everyone uses onions lol.

Her love language was cooking. Every time I went to her house she would like beg to cook me French toast cause she knew I loved hers the most(it was crunchy, not soggy) 😂 2pm and she’d be saying “want me to make you some French toast?!!!” I wish I would’ve said yes every single time.

Damn.

Jon’s immediate family wanted to get matching tattoos, Jon was down for it and even suggested palm trees I believe. Well, he talked to his dad on speaker with me today and they are all going to get theirs down in FL next weekend. (Other than Jon, of course)

Then at the end of the convo Jon says “love you guys” his dad just says “yep, bye”. After they hung up he told me his dad hasn’t said he loves him back in the last few months.

How sad. I’ve always had my issues with them but usually kept quiet to Jon about it. I am glad he sees the BS but I hate that they are so blatantly hurting him.

They absolutely hate that he spends time with his bio dad’s family. But his mom married and had a baby with the guy. Regardless of how much they hate bio dad, he is part of who Jon is. They don’t have to like it but they also shouldn’t punish him for wanting to know where he comes from.

I dunno. Both of our families seem so off these days and I kinda just wanna move somewhere totally different and away from everyone. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Mental health in the pits.

What else is new. Sick of myself and feeling this way. But also know it’s my own damn fault. And that I need a journal no one else can see me whine in. 😭🤣

So just venting @myself as per usual 😂

natureloveratheart:

anxietyproblem:

I truly don’t know how I have any hair left.

Handfuls and handfuls for the last 6ish months.

burntblueberrywaffles:

It’s one of those days that I think I would literally pay someone to go to work for me 🥲😂

SOS. I need a career that doesn’t make me feel worthless. Well, more so I need to feel like my job has a purpose and not just taking care of snobby A holes. The end.

feelingsoftheday:

sometimes you gotta back away from shit you love, just to see if it love you

anxietyproblem:

dankmemes23:

emotionalwords:

i explained my pain and still got hurt so i learned to stop talking